For the past few months I have been so indecisive about whether or not I really want to publicly post about my fitness journey that has been ongoing for almost 2 years now. I can’t pinpoint exactly what it is that is making me contemplate it so much, but I realised that my journey is something I should be proud of and share with all of you who might be interested!
If you’re one who knows me from high school or middle school, you’ll know that I was overweight back then. I was never dangerously obese, but I was unhappy with my body and unfortunate events like losing my dad made it difficult for me to find the energy and motivation to make a change. Before leaving home for Uni, I realised it was the perfect time to turn my life around for the better and start fresh as a new and improved person. I got a gym membership and started going to classes that I genuinely enjoyed, and it encouraged me to be a frequent visitor of my local gym. With all my hard work at the gym, it also forced me to start becoming more conscious about eating a little bit more healthy than I was at the time.
Eventually I started doing some cardio on my own (power walking on an incline – I was still quite unfit at this point) and yoga classes for strength training. It’s so important when you’re starting off at the gym to not be too hard on yourself. Jumping into a routine that is way beyond your fitness level won’t help at all and will just make you feel, quite frankly – like shit. Don’t compare yourself to anyone else and just prepare yourself for a fitter you by doing a workout that is pushing your limits, but only to a manageable extent!
I didn’t check my weight on the scale too often… At the end of the day, the number on that scale didn’t mean much to me when I was starting to feel more happy and confident about myself already. Eventually, after about a few months I noticed that I was slowly starting to slim down. My workouts at the gym gradually got more and more intense as my fitness level was increasing and it motivated me even more to continue what I started.
I’d rather not share my before and after weight because I personally don’t think it’s important. It’s so easy to get caught up on those digits on the scale. It’s something that can be so easily compared with someone else’s and can cause so much hatred and demotivation. My point is, I eventually reached my weight goal, which required a loss of over 15 kg (33 pounds)! It was a very slow process, but I knew it had to be that way. I kept up the mindset that if I was planning on losing weight overnight, it would be 1) unrealistic and 2) done in the most unhealthy and unpleasant way.
By the time I reached my weight goal, my Body Mass Index deemed me a healthy weight! From this point onwards I experimented with different workout routines trying to find out what worked best for me and what I enjoyed doing the most. I no longer had the intention of losing any more weight but rather to strengthen and lean up my body. I think this is also another important point! When you’re losing so much weight, it can become obsessive to want to continue to lose weight. It’s good to have a goal and have it written down so that once you’re reach that goal, you know you can stop obsessing over continuing to try to lose more when you’re already perfectly healthy!
When you’ve been doing something that makes you feel so happy, pretty much every single day for over a year, it’s hard for it not to become a passion. This is what fitness, health and mindfulness soon became to me. I started incorporating more weight training in my workouts, practicing yoga on a daily basis and even starting to base my diet around an organic and paleo diet and giving up excessive amounts of processed food!
I’ve never felt more happy with my life than I do today, and I encourage anyone who doesn’t truly love themselves to make a positive change in their life too! Although I’m one trillion times more confident and happy than I ever have been before, my fitness journey will forever be ongoing. There are still and will always be days when I feel less good about myself than other days, but I’ll never stop working towards building a better me. Girls, it’s pretty much inevitable for us to never be fully satisfied with ourselves but just embrace how you are and use it as motivation to just keep getting better!